My victory

 Such a cutie in his tennis shoes and little jeans!

 Staring at one of his favorite things ever!  His mobile!

His sweet little tennis shoes

These little shoes were given to Owen by one of the sweetest women I know.  She posted on Facebook a long time ago, what has become one of my favorite Bible verses.  When she posted this, I was pregnant with Owen.  Neil had found some swollen lymph nodes and was in the process of taking medicine to see if they went down.  I was in a real bad place.  I was having a lot of trouble keeping my eyes on God during this time.  I went to Facebook that day, and just started crying.  All my anxiety left me!  See, in 2006, we were going through the exact same situation.  In November of 2005, we were surprised to find out we were pregnant!  We were shocked, but SOSOSOSO excited!  At the same time, Neil found some swollen lymph nodes.  After about a month of pain, I made him call the doctor.  He went through 2 months of tests and medicines, but nothing was helping, and they were getting so much worse.  And finally, we were sent to a cancer surgeon.  All within the same week, in January 2006, I went through a miscarriage and waited in the waiting room for the surgeon to tell me if my husband had cancer or not.  We were dealing with the fact Neil might have Lymphoma.  It was one of the darkest moments of my life.  I was already seeing a life without him.  I was convinced God was taking him.  I knew there was no way God would give me another baby and take Neil, so when I lost the baby, all I could think was, well, He must be taking Neil too.  When the surgeon walked in 2 hours later, telling me Neil was going to be ok, I had never been so joyous in my life! I was certainly praising God!! 

So, when Neil was taking medicine this time for his infection, I just kept thinking "Not again! Not again! Please!!!" And that is what brings us to the verse she wrote on her post.

I wait quietly before God, for my victory comes from Him. Psalm 62:1

God blessed us in 2006, and he blessed us again in 2010 a few months after I read her post!  My healthy, wonderful husband, my 2 darling, little girls and I brought home a beautiful, baby boy!!

While I have a hard time being quiet, my victory most definitely comes from Him!